The Countdown

Twenty five years ago you entered my life

Completely unexpectedly

Twenty three years ago, we made a mutual promise

to stay together for eternity

Twenty one years ago, we created life

bonding us completely

Nineteen years ago, another gift came forth

but amid chaotic doubts, reminding us of the promise

Seventeen years ago, a renewal of faith happened

and we began again

Sixteen years ago, we were reminded of the fragility of

what we had

Fourteen years ago, you ran away from the fear of the fraility

that you could not change

Twelve years ago, we began the long painful goodbye

resigning from the expectations we had

Ten years ago, we became you and me

separate identities again

Eight years ago, I sat and watched you from afar

seeking your elusive happiness and throwing away something more important

Seven years ago, I saw you make some some changes

toward acknowledging your mistakes

Five years ago,I sat in a church with others

Saying a final goodbye to you, you chose to leave again

Today I still find you haunt me, memories from yesteryear

The temper, the looks , the silliness, your loneliness

I watch our children go thru life, dealing with each crisis

as it comes, I see you in their actions.

Words uttered years ago continue to taunt me

How I had your best and you will never leave

As I was cleaning last night, I came across some words written

throughout my life,

Once sorted and laid out you had the highest stack

Words showing the gamut of emotions you ran me through

Words reminding me of our promises made, of these being broken

Of the intense emotions felt as I spiraled downward trying to save us

And when I finally let go

I still miss you, even though I know we could not have remained together

but the kids need you, they are like boats on an ocean without a sail

I am their rudder, but without the sail, they are stuck

Through our actions we hurt one another

but we did our best by the kids

now with the support you gave

even I am floundering trying to get through this ocean of endless waves

You entered my life and changed it with your smile, and blue eyes

for that I have cussed you and thanked you

Now I am left with remembering you,seeking the good

to grant you a legacy so the bitterness is muted.

Written and Copywritten by ADR, Anne Denese Rhoney November 30, 2010

The Coffee Shop

Time passes with strife and tests

Filling each day with new challenges

If you live in the moment

How can you enjoy the small pearls

Left along the way

Sitting in a coffee shop relaxing

Leaving the planner, iphone, calender

and deadlines behind, allowing the day

to slowly awaken, revealing the small

pearls of pleasure along the way.

A group of grannies, playing Bridge

A young man watching his Asian dramas

Two others watching the daily news,

awaiting the school bell to ring

All enveloped within the caress of coffees aroma

while the Blues play in the background.

Soothing and gentle, creating introspection

without the drama, everything seems sealed

in a protective bubble. Allowing the mind and body

to acknowledge the new day with a happier mindset.

Giving the mind license to wander and indulge

into areas of creativity and creating solutions for issues

by getting out of the box, and rat race.

Mornings with a cup of Joe, Blues and quiet zones

to bring in the day with a calmness and gentleness that

everyday needs. Life within this bubble, is wonderful

But as with all good things, one must leave to face the day with its

myriad of issues, and hopefully having the chance to breath and

be comforted with the silkiness of the coffee shops bubble, Life will not

be as acidic and troublesome, cause one always has the memory of the lil grannies

playing Bridge, the young man watching his Asian dramas, and the smell of the coffee brewing

in the background set to the strains of a quiet Blues melody.

Written and Copyrighted by ADR, aka Anne Denese Rhoney, Reg, Regnhild, Lobo321, and Lobo among others.

For Those Who Serve...

For Those Who Served:

Today is a day of remembrance and pride

A day to reflect upon the trials of those who walked before

Of the sacrifices of the ones now, and the ones of the future

Who will continue to guard and protect this life, these freedoms.

It is for the souls who swam through the frigid morning tide

of Normandy, for the ones who fought in Kuwait at the Devils Door,

for the ones who were unable to leave the action theater,

and for the ones who came home, but with scars beyond comprehension.

Some dream of honor and glory, others a sense of duty

All have memories irreplaceable, of camaraderie beyond the office.

Of sharing socks in wet weather, of wading through chest high water,

Memories of having one cigarette but no light, of MRE's, and BDU's.

Some remember shell fire, others a childs smile, an unspoiled view

For some memories are hard to experience,most feel it was worth it

to have protect the choices that are not offered beyond our borders

For this they serve, they sacrifice, they fight, they remain true

To our way of life, our beliefs, to our forefathers, to our patriots.

For this we need to remember those of us that are close to our hearts

For those who have lost all, for those who are missing, yet still fight

for those who are home, yet are still on the battlefield.

We as the ones that benefit the most, should remember to celebrate

daily, the blessings we have been given unselfishly, by our veterans

We need to reach out to our warriors, to assure them they were right

That all the sacrifice and loss was and is appreciated, now its time to heal

Written in honor of our nations Keepers of Peace,

The Warriors of the World that protect daily Man's right to Freedom,

Just to name a few, though not all inclusive

The First Armoured Division Of the USArmy, The Third Armoured Division of the USArmy,

James Hendrix, served 1958, WW11 passed in service with US Air Force,
G.W. Durden, served US Army,SGT Jim B Durden, served US Army NG, US Air Force,retired.

SP/4 John D. Rhoney, served 1983- 1989, US Army, Passed, J. G, Hall, served US Army WWII.

SGT Don Whitley, US Army, retired, SP/4 Christopher Cutlip, presently serving, SGT Gary Purcell, retired, veteran Vietnam., Leonard Dingle, served US Air Force.
Micheal Crovatt, US Marine Corp,and Robert Rogers Veteran US Army are among the many who have touched my life personally. Thank You All for giving me the freedom to be me.

Authored by, Regnhild,aka Reg, Lobo, and Anne Denese Rhoney Copyrighted 11.11.10

Procrastination.... my bane

Hello all... if anyone is left reading this. I have not disappeared due to popular belief. I have only fallen into that void that is created by overwork and procrastination. I left one job in hopes of having more me time... somehow, that extra time has been absorbed into the new job. While not necessarily a bad thing, just prohibits me from achieving what I wish to achieve. And who's fault is that. Mine... ultimately. Here I am at 43, still chasing rainbows, and leprechauns. I feel twenty years younger, yet my reflection and the toll the stress takes on my body remind me daily how many years I have lived. What have I learned in that time... lots yet not enough.

I have learned to get through the rough patches in life, one must be fluid... like the river running through the canyon, yet like a willow, flexible but able to withstand strong winds.

Life loves to throw us unsuspecting peeps curve-balls, to keep us on our respective toes, just when you think all is good and smooth sailing, that is where the danger begins to manifest.

Most times it is not as traumatic as we think at the time. Yet the traumatic events tend to devastate us.

Most think that living without a cell phone is a tragedy, yet how did our grandparents do it? How did people exist without internet? And vehicles? These have propelled our lives forward, yet at what cost? But I digress... that is what lack of sleep does to oneself. I hope to find my wandering muse and begin this blog in earnest. To acheive what I have set out in the achievements list for myself to improve me and a small part of the world we live in.

Til Anon Everyone.

And so the new day ends....

As another yet begins. The new day ended as it began with me at work... here only for a few more days. I will really miss it. And actually will have to get used to having these 30+ hours or so to myself again. Oh don't get me wrong.... there is plenty to do... just so used to being behind the wire that having extra time to accomplish those things will be abit unsettling at first. But I will now be able to start on my to do list for the year. And have a better chance of completing it. Tomorrow is the second day of free time before the proverbial "Fat Lady Sings', cause Sunday I have quite the long day, beginning at 1o am and ending after midnight, only to return here at 11 am on Monday thru 3 pm, then off to the new job from 4 pm till after midnight. Then we have to see what Tuesday brings, but I do know I will return here Thursday and Friday night. Friday being my last day here. Most likely I will be pulling doubles thru then. Rest shall come afterwards I hope.

Happy Birthday to Me! 8.13.10

Here it is again, the day to celebrate me. Some wish me well and prosperity, others offer hugs and love, and still others continue on with their lives without knowing.

For me it is another day, but one that gives me the chance and opportunity to change things of myself that I find lacking. Or the chance to discover something deep within my soul that I have not had the chance to find in the past. So for the next year I am on a quest of self discovery, and awaking the dormant side of me to allow myself to become a fuller and more rounded individual.

I hope to become healthier, better focused and more accomplished. With this little blog to keep reminding me of my goals; I will achieve these at least.

So lets make a to do list for Reg... and review it in thirty days from today to see what changes are being made.

I think I shall post it off to the side of the blog so it will be a constant reminder to me what I hope to achieve over the next year.

I will include a daily photo within this blog of something that resonated with me during the day and struck me in some way with an explanation following the photo.

Enjoy the next year with me.:)