Twenty five years ago you entered my life
Completely unexpectedly
Twenty three years ago, we made a mutual promise
to stay together for eternity
Twenty one years ago, we created life
bonding us completely
Nineteen years ago, another gift came forth
but amid chaotic doubts, reminding us of the promise
Seventeen years ago, a renewal of faith happened
and we began again
Sixteen years ago, we were reminded of the fragility of
what we had
Fourteen years ago, you ran away from the fear of the fraility
that you could not change
Twelve years ago, we began the long painful goodbye
resigning from the expectations we had
Ten years ago, we became you and me
separate identities again
Eight years ago, I sat and watched you from afar
seeking your elusive happiness and throwing away something more important
Seven years ago, I saw you make some some changes
toward acknowledging your mistakes
Five years ago,I sat in a church with others
Saying a final goodbye to you, you chose to leave again
Today I still find you haunt me, memories from yesteryear
The temper, the looks , the silliness, your loneliness
I watch our children go thru life, dealing with each crisis
as it comes, I see you in their actions.
Words uttered years ago continue to taunt me
How I had your best and you will never leave
As I was cleaning last night, I came across some words written
throughout my life,
Once sorted and laid out you had the highest stack
Words showing the gamut of emotions you ran me through
Words reminding me of our promises made, of these being broken
Of the intense emotions felt as I spiraled downward trying to save us
And when I finally let go
I still miss you, even though I know we could not have remained together
but the kids need you, they are like boats on an ocean without a sail
I am their rudder, but without the sail, they are stuck
Through our actions we hurt one another
but we did our best by the kids
now with the support you gave
even I am floundering trying to get through this ocean of endless waves
You entered my life and changed it with your smile, and blue eyes
for that I have cussed you and thanked you
Now I am left with remembering you,seeking the good
to grant you a legacy so the bitterness is muted.
Written and Copywritten by ADR, Anne Denese Rhoney November 30, 2010
